Life Lately

Updates from a newly engaged woman in a season of unlearning.

“At a certain point, the more you keep reliving the past, the more you stay stuck in it.”

-Me

I sat for a while the other day, going through all of my saved reels to delete the sounds I’d saved over six months ago. Most were around the theme of being a strong and independent woman, needing no one (especially a man) to help me.

That’s kind of been the theme of my life for the last several years.

However, I’ve had the realization recently that sometimes the only way to truly heal certain pieces of my past life is to have someone who can mirror the cracks back to me, helping me see what needs to be healed and aiding in that process.

I can do anything but not everything.

There was a quote I saw on Instagram the other day that said:

… and nothing has resonated more deeply in this current season than that quote.

I think the purpose of being single, loving yourself, and finding yourself is so that you don’t lose yourself when you find the one.

There’s a balance in that, I’m finding.
There’s a rewiring within that which I’m having to allow.

Little things like allowing him to open the doors for me, to big things, like shifting how I respond vs. react in certain situations, all requiring the intention to pay more attention.

September so far has felt so good.
I celebrated Joey’s second birthday and Archie’s 4th birthday, got engaged to a man who feels like he was sent directly from the Universe, and have spent some time traveling in between working on my new work ventures.

Even when things feel so good, it doesn’t stop old-wired beliefs, thought patterns, and engrained actions from seeping into the cracks of a beautiful life in forward motion.